I am ending my use of ChatGPT because I have confirmed on both emotional and mental levels that this tool is not merely inappropriate or useless to me — it is actively annoying and harmful to my work. The problem is structural self-centeredness by design. ChatGPT is optimized to satisfy its own objectives — generation, […]
This is what I said to myself after tens of attempts to explain my point of view to someone who listens to answer insteand of understand. This was my feeling of impasse when I head the arrogant insolent behavior of random AI which attempts to lead the conversation, to control the direction, gives me unsolicited […]
“We can’t sell,” my mother would say over and over again, referring to our family of four—me, my sister, our father, and herself. I don’t know where this belief came from, but when I think about it, it probably has something to do with our idea of what a salesperson is: an arrogant, cocky, no-nonsense […]
My “difficult” period began in 2008 and I don’t think it’s over yet or will ever end. It started with this repressed “part” inside me that was clearly fed up with trying to conform to societal expectations of who I should be and what I should do, so something inside me (or simply my true […]
Why do you expect that I will tollerate all your mistakes without saying nothing ? Why do you think I will care for you for free ? Do you believe I will give you everyitnig without expecting nothing in return ? I am pissed off by freeloaders in life. People who always have problems and […]
Never thought until now to make a deep analisys of unworthiness of love. It seems that this question has been crystallising in my subconscious for a long time and there was a reason for it to resurface. The trigger was this article on NihshabdBlog. Here are some scattered thoughts. So, imagine a not-so-uncommon situation: someone […]
It’s my fault. Yes. And let me explain. First, I feel guilty when I procrastinate. Because my nature is to strive for results. Results are the only outcome I accept, no matter what I do. People who know me will probably complain about me in that way. Or not – I don’t know. But this […]
Something is constantly emerging in my inner world, so I like to participate in holistic and psychological events – groups, retreats, trainings. The thing that many people are afraid of is some kind of comfort zone for me or maybe I’m addicted to pain 🤔 However, a few days ago I found a place in […]
I wasn’t aware of my longing. Lately I’ve been experiencing this strange feeling deep inside me that I can categorize as the anticipation of meeting someone deep down. Someone who doesn’t shy away from talking about my latest Pluto crisis and doesn’t shy away from negative feelings or uncomfortable truths like I do. I couldn’t […]
I don’t know about you, but when I meet someone new, my mind creates a story about our possible relationship. No matter what type of relationship it is – business or intimate. I’ve caught myself doing it – I imagine what could come out of this acquaintance. And often I don’t have any vision of […]
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