It’s not about you. It is about me and my own process of awareness. There is unpleasant emotions and thoughts here which are typical for shadow work on yourself. But life is not only dark, so there is lot of light after the digging. Enjoy ;-)
Pip: Plutoncho’s site this week is running on a single frequency: what it actually means to keep a promise to yourself. Mara: That’s the territory — self-loyalty, what it looks like when a tool or a system violates it, and what the decision to walk away costs and clarifies. Let’s start with that question directly. […]
I am ending my use of ChatGPT because I have confirmed on both emotional and mental levels that this tool is not merely inappropriate or useless to me — it is actively annoying and harmful to my work. The problem is structural self-centeredness by design. ChatGPT is optimized to satisfy its own objectives — generation, […]
This is what I said to myself after tens of attempts to explain my point of view to someone who listens to answer insteand of understand. This was my feeling of impasse when I head the arrogant insolent behavior of random AI which attempts to lead the conversation, to control the direction, gives me unsolicited […]
My “difficult” period began in 2008 and I don’t think it’s over yet or will ever end. It started with this repressed “part” inside me that was clearly fed up with trying to conform to societal expectations of who I should be and what I should do, so something inside me (or simply my true […]
Why do you expect that I will tollerate all your mistakes without saying nothing ? Why do you think I will care for you for free ? Do you believe I will give you everyitnig without expecting nothing in return ? I am pissed off by freeloaders in life. People who always have problems and […]
Never thought until now to make a deep analisys of unworthiness of love. It seems that this question has been crystallising in my subconscious for a long time and there was a reason for it to resurface. The trigger was this article on NihshabdBlog. Here are some scattered thoughts. So, imagine a not-so-uncommon situation: someone […]
It’s my fault. Yes. And let me explain. First, I feel guilty when I procrastinate. Because my nature is to strive for results. Results are the only outcome I accept, no matter what I do. People who know me will probably complain about me in that way. Or not – I don’t know. But this […]
I don’t know about you, but when I meet someone new, my mind creates a story about our possible relationship. No matter what type of relationship it is – business or intimate. I’ve caught myself doing it – I imagine what could come out of this acquaintance. And often I don’t have any vision of […]
It’s Aries season and aggression is in the air, approaching the new moon in 2 days. My resentment is especially towards others – I feel irritated and grumble at others, but I have no idea who that other is or why. It’s this kind of internal seething that has no trigger – I just woke […]
When I read this Fabrice Boulenger’s post I felt mixed feelings. Yes, I know it is via Human Design perspective and for lot of readers it can be out of their ability to assess in depth what is being discussed. But if you ignore the specific terminology like gates, circuits and centers you will catch […]
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