It’s Aries season and aggression is in the air, approaching the new moon in 2 days. My resentment is especially towards others – I feel irritated and grumble at others, but I have no idea who that other is or why. It’s this kind of internal seething that has no trigger – I just woke up and felt this way today. I’ve never been aggressive, but today I feel like I want to punch someone. Just give me a reason. And there’s not even a single provocation from real people on the outside. It’s just an internal process. I’ve never felt this way before. But I can understand. And the challenge is just to be, to observe my inner states and not do anything.

I even asked a friend of mine if she wanted to fight with me. “What about sex instead?” she said. Bad girl. Why does she think sex is the cure-all? “I’m far away,” I said. Fighting is the only thing possible. Online.

And on top of that, I’m in Hong Kong. I like this place. It’s my first time here. I’m walking the streets, meeting interesting people, there are new scents for me. I want to smile at some of the people, but how can I do that when I’m internally angry at some unknown others?

Feelings are not like emotions – triggered by interaction. I can feel angry for no real reason. Obviously.