Well, a lot has been said about emotional intelligence and why it’s important, but saying it’s not the same as doing it, so there are a lot of people who know but still act immature. And it seems that I unconsciously avoid these people, along with the obviously immature ones.

I was thinking about the fact that for many years I was overwhelmed by the emotional tasks that I had to do, not only in terms of fulfilling my functional duties, but also in maintaining personal relationships. Because there was always someone who was dramatizing to get what they wanted instead of what was agreed upon. Or someone irresponsible who wanted to shift their own responsibility onto me. Or someone deeply traumatized who was just living their life in a state of denial, so they were just looking for the next conflict to ignite, trying to win, validating their own existence for a while that way. Until the next internal crisis.

I’m really tired of this. But the bad news is that generations change and there is no light at the end of the tunnel – only the emotional outbursts change. Along with the claims. And the expectations to be threatened like a prince and princess, without any thought that in fact the relationship is a matter of reciprocity.

Maybe I’m just getting old and I feel tired of these useless battles, fueled by unconscious emotions, unrealistic expectations, false confidence and enthusiasm, desperate ignorance pretending to be authority in public communication channels. I could go on, but I don’t see the point.

And I don’t want to teach them, explain them or wait for them to understand, giving them a second and third chance. No. I’m tired of it already. No, I just turn my back and walk away. But sometimes I still feel disappointed, which means I had hopes and expectations after all.

God has blessed me to feel good in my own company. And I still have a few good friends. But sometimes I feel this longing to connect with someone I don’t know and…

… my heart is full of love, but I can’t find an authentic person to give it to. Only prickly cactus people who are aggressive, seeking closeness.

Because the paradox is that they behave like this because they lack love, but when they get some, they don’t know how to accept it. How sad!

The love in their dreams is the one from Instagram posts, so they can’t recognize it in real life.

Sad! Poor lost souls.