I Don’t Have Money

I’ve heard this many times from my father, from friends and colleagues. I’ve heard myself say this to someone in the past and even to myself. My mother didn’t tell me, but it was even worse because I could see her face when I asked for money as a child. So I subconsciously started avoiding […]

Nobody cares about me

I experience it many times every day. I receive the next spam email from a stranger. This person is halfway around the world and has somehow gotten hold of my email. Does he care about me ? Asking for water and the flight attendant at the Philippine airline tells me they don’t accept card payments. […]

Feeling used by the others

“I have a resistance to saying yes to you. I don’t want to do it, I’ll force myself because that’s you. But I have a strong NO feeling.” That was my response to my friend today, answering her question, “Will you translate this for me?” It wasn’t just a sentence or two. And I’m not […]

Because they don’t like what I’ve done ?

It was almost trivial. My father did something that made me look bad in front of other people. Later I asked him in private why he did it? And he was shocked. He tried to accuse me of something that wasn’t true. Long story short: He finally said, “Then I’ll disinherit you.” He didn’t speak […]

I wish I could respect others more

I don’t trust others enough anymore. In the past, when someone treated me disrespectfully, I had the strength to understand. I tried to convince myself that their intentions weren’t bad. Maybe the person was having a bad day or something stressful happened in their life. I believed that they weren’t inherently rude. I just changed […]