It’s not about you. It is about me and my own process of awareness. There is unpleasant emotions and thoughts here which are typical for shadow work on yourself. But life is not only dark, so there is lot of light after the digging. Enjoy ;-)
That’s the word that describes me today. It’s a deep inner struggle for meaning. An existential crisis in nature. A noogenic neurosis, as Viktor Frankl would say. No one can help me with this. I have to find meaning for my own soul deep within myself. I know this state. It’s not the first time […]
My old identity is dead. I wondered why I had been feeling so sad lately for no obvious reason. As is usually the case in the typical GRIEF process defined by Elisabeth Kübler-Ross, I tried to bargain with life. I denied the situation. I felt angry because it wasn’t fair. Or I was depressed. And […]
Digging deeper and deeper into myself to discover who I am can be addictive. And painful when the discoveries I make start to manifest on the outside. Some people leave my life. Some activities no longer interest me. Sometimes I feel alone, though rarely lonely, and I wonder if there’s something wrong with me. Is […]
… is me. Yes, yes, me, myself and I. Why do I think so? ? If I can say I know somebody, it is really me. I am the only person I’ve been together with for so long. Whether I feel confident all the time is another matter. I’ve fallen so many times, and every […]
Trying to avoid negative feelings does not help me solve “the problem.” This happens if I perceive negative feelings as the core problem itself. I usually apply a typical framework in such situations. The first question will be “What is the problem?” The honest answer must be the name of this feeling. Nothing more or […]
I walked into the co-working space where I’ve been spending my mornings and early afternoons lately. I have a favorite sitting area, so I headed there. I found a girl sitting next to me. I had noticed her presence before. I started working, but I was having a hard time concentrating. I started to feel […]
I felt deeply disappointed today, sharing a problem with DeepSeek. The response I received was structured advice what to do and what not to do. I felt even insulted in a way, because this behavior directly screams in my face “You are moron, I’ll now explain you how things must be done” Which is outdated, […]
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