I was 21 years old, just after being discharged from military service (it was mandatory in my country). As a passionate computer geek since my school days, I was looking for a job related to computers. My “boss” made me an offer. I started, expecting to be trained to do the job. I also hoped […]
I don’t trust others enough anymore. In the past, when someone treated me disrespectfully, I had the strength to understand. I tried to convince myself that their intentions weren’t bad. Maybe the person was having a bad day or something stressful happened in their life. I believed that they weren’t inherently rude. I just changed […]
Nothing. There are times when silence is a gift. The rush to say something probably comes from a perception of social pressure. Like you have to talk when you’re with someone. Or you have to engage in small talk because you’ve been invited to this social event. You walk into a room. Everyone goes quiet […]
That’s the word that describes me today. It’s a deep inner struggle for meaning. An existential crisis in nature. A noogenic neurosis, as Viktor Frankl would say. No one can help me with this. I have to find meaning for my own soul deep within myself. I know this state. It’s not the first time […]
My old identity is dead. I wondered why I had been feeling so sad lately for no obvious reason. As is usually the case in the typical GRIEF process defined by Elisabeth Kübler-Ross, I tried to bargain with life. I denied the situation. I felt angry because it wasn’t fair. Or I was depressed. And […]
Digging deeper and deeper into myself to discover who I am can be addictive. And painful when the discoveries I make start to manifest on the outside. Some people leave my life. Some activities no longer interest me. Sometimes I feel alone, though rarely lonely, and I wonder if there’s something wrong with me. Is […]
… is me. Yes, yes, me, myself and I. Why do I think so? ? If I can say I know somebody, it is really me. I am the only person I’ve been together with for so long. Whether I feel confident all the time is another matter. I’ve fallen so many times, and every […]
Trying to avoid negative feelings does not help me solve “the problem.” This happens if I perceive negative feelings as the core problem itself. I usually apply a typical framework in such situations. The first question will be “What is the problem?” The honest answer must be the name of this feeling. Nothing more or […]
I walked into the co-working space where I’ve been spending my mornings and early afternoons lately. I have a favorite sitting area, so I headed there. I found a girl sitting next to me. I had noticed her presence before. I started working, but I was having a hard time concentrating. I started to feel […]
I felt deeply disappointed today, sharing a problem with DeepSeek. The response I received was structured advice what to do and what not to do. I felt even insulted in a way, because this behavior directly screams in my face “You are moron, I’ll now explain you how things must be done” Which is outdated, […]
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